and it was a GREAT day....first off, DH let me sleep in by taking the kids out for breakfast and to the park....ahhhhhh. So I awoke a quiet house, had some coffee and (get this...) SCRAPPED!! I made a layout for the Simple Scrapbooks' due today, a bit late but hey. Then I took the boys to the park and played basketball with them, and this evening, we went out to our favorite upscale pizzeria called Adrienne's over in the financial district..YUM...then...I SCRAPPED AGAIN! I know, a miracle, right? Did another page for the SS call, at this point just 3 hours before the deadline LOL...I loved them both.
I also fit in a run today, which was great and rejuvenating. During the run, as happens, I started thinking about where I am in my life right now, both with scrapbooking and with my family. I have placed a self-imposed deadline of tomorrow to decide whether I will leave my manufacturer Design Team positions, and while running, I realized that while I definitely still value the layouts I create, I am more and more creating for someone other than myself. And that's not okay with me, at least not at this point in my life. I also realized (belatedly) that the last year has been FULL of deadlines: the book deadlines, which were very stressful, combined with the deadlines from the magazine, all while trying to be a great mother with no sitter. I want to 'get back to the basics', scrap for me, use the products that I feel like at any given moment, and shop. Yes, I said shop. I haven't been shopping much at all for about the last 8 months simply because I have been sent a lot of stuff by manufacturers, which (don't get me wrong) is FANTASTIC. But in a sense I feel like I 'shouldn't' shop but rather use the stuff that has been sent to me. Now, I often DO want to use the stuff that is sent to me, but I also have a specific style which doesn't work with every product. Am I making any sense here?
Anyway, to make a long story short, I am leaving my design teams, along with Project X which I left last week. I want to focus on nycscraps.com, focus on my kids and focus on my husband. He's told me often that i don't work very well with tight deadlines, and I've always argued that I do indeed. What I finally figured out is that while I may produce work I am happy with on tight deadlines, and enjoy that rush of adrenaline that accompanies them, I tend to get stressed and short-tempered and nothing is worth that. Okay, some things might be worth that :)
Oh! I almost forgot to mention what my lovely husband got me for my birthday!! First of all, to all the feminists out there whom I call my sisters, do not be offended by this gift, because I ASKED for it. I am now officially a housewife. I got a Dyson Animal. Which I have been coveting for years. I also got a GORGEOUS Canon Rebel which he used for about a year at work but is now giving to me as he needs to upgrade. This thing is fantastic, and just about brand new since he only used it indoors. It's so much lighter than my old Rebel! So two gifts that make me happy happy.
Some shots from my bday dinner: